Sunday, August 5, 2012
a new normal
The transition to three children has been more of challenge than the switch to two.
I know that's not always true for everyone with three kids or more, but it's been true for us.
Now, I don't want to come off as whiny. I am poignantly aware at how extremely blessed we are.
But things are different around here lately...and probably forever. I feel like we have been paddling around feverishly to get "back to normal," whatever that was, only to find that we are simply treading water. Just keeping our heads above water (most of the time), and feeling like we aren't getting anywhere.
Before a road trip my mother-in-law likes to say, "We're off like a herd of turtles!" She says that as a friendly reminder to my father-in-law to not speed, but I think it's also an apt description of our lives right now. Our efficiency pace can sometimes be painfully slow. There have been things on my to do list for months now, like revamp my blog design, get social media buttons, update my tutorials section, get the house back on a cleaning schedule (instead of cleaning the bathroom whenever it gets disgusting - which if you know me in person, it's probably a shock to you to read that, I am very much not myself lately which I think is both good and bad), and much more important things like figure out a way to have mommy preschool with Reid that doesn't result in a melt down of some sort (I think he might do better if his teacher isn't me, which kills me because I loved teaching Owen).
I think I am beginning to see a new dimension to "the slow and steady win the race", I'm beginning to see that the slow and steady learn to see what's most important. Instead of trying to do everything as fast as we can, because we can't, I'm learning to let things fall by the wayside and try, try oh so hard, not to let what cannot be, eat at me. Now sometimes I make the wrong judgement call and I let the less important things take up my very limited time. Other times, all I want to do is soak in how little my kids are, so I do.
We need to live in the thick of life and enjoy it instead of always looking forward to "someday." Someday when we have more time, someday when the kids are older, someday when we land that career and get that house, and so and on. I have to remind myself that "someday" is not all it's chalked up to be, but that today is. (Sound familiar, yes last month's Presidency message from our Church magazine couldn't be more fitting for our family...imagine that :)))
So thank you for your kind emails, encouraging comments, and for sticking around while we, I, figure out our "new normal."